New Beginnings: Grateful Endings
Closing the door so another one can open
1I remember when I was in my twenties, I wanted to write a book about how our lives are divided into chapters. The navigation from chapter to chapter is what I would call now, a karmic imprint. Turning the page in the chapter of your life can be exciting, exhilarating, and inspiring! And, when you turn that page, stepping into a new storyline, it always means something has ended.
I’ve had many endings and new beginnings as I am sure you have as well. And when things end, it can bring about grief, disappointment, regret, and even fear. The yogis say the root of all suffering comes with attachment, and I have to say I agree.
When the one thing we can completely count on in this life is impermanence, why do we cling?
If you think back, how many poignant moments of your life signify a chapter of your life? Mine are simple:
When I left Michigan and moved to San Diego in the early 90’s. Yes, before the internet when apartments and jobs were found in the newspaper.
When I got married and had children, and then later when I decided to end the marriage.
When I moved from Washington State to San Francisco, and then again from San Francisco to Encinitas.
And now, as my youngest daughter goes to live on campus, just 40 minutes away.
I have been a yoga teacher for over two decades and I fell into this role quite reluctantly. Over the years, it gave me a voice, calmed my restless heart, cultivated awareness, healed my body, opened my eyes, taught me so much about myself, and mostly, the practice activated my soul. This career path has served me well, even if I still cling too long to things.
I’m ending a chapter; a couple of them, all at once. This is how I do things: rip off the band-aid and let the air heal the wound, so to speak.
I have decided to take a sabbatical from teaching public classes. I love offering public classes – there’s an energy that is palpable – it’s like watching artwork in motion and I get to be the director. What a privilege this has been. And …
The wind is shifting.
Space is opening up.
Time is standing still.
Awareness is expanding.
I watch my daughter prepare to leave and my heart knows what’s coming. I feel into the spaces that are now empty and quiet. It’s been a ride – one that has been filled with joy, grace, hardship, struggle, grief, strength, resilience, and love. In this new quiet space, clarity is present, and the whisper of my soul is calling. I’ve done things a certain way for so very long in order to survive, make ends meet, calculate my income, and provide. I’ve always been blessed with abundant resources, and infinite creativity … a gift I do not take lightly.
And now it’s time to listen even deeper into the abundance that life is offering.
I am putting my focus on mental stillness, physical vitality, peaceful relationships, and loving connection. In my business my focus is going to opening a healing center in Southern California, hosting retreats, and facilitating trainings.
There will be less social media and more real connection.
Less scrolling and more gardening.
Less hustling and more cultivating.
You will find me ON THE BLUFF when the weather is nice and I’m here in Encinitas.
I’ll be in studios here and there, SUBBING CLASSES and HOSTING TRAININGS
My RETREATS will take us to places across the globe that I love to return to or that have been on my bucket list for years.
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These are all offerings that require a lot of work. It’s said that people need to see things (9) times now before they respond. That is a lot of output for an entrepreneur, and I want to turn that energy back to me.
More writing from my heart.
More care for my physical body.
More love for my heart.
Deeper connection to Source.
What is meant for us will always find us. I trust that we will find one another on this path. I look forward to our hearts meeting again as we share presence and practice. I’ll be offering up writings here as writing speaks to my heart, so feel free to follow and share. I don’t know what this next chapter looks like but while I turn the page, my heart is open, and presence is the at the helm.
I look forward to seeing you on this path.